Monday, July 14, 2014

are you willing?



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Do you ever have those days where you keep feeling that same "urge" over and over again to do something that you don't really want to do? For instance, you know you need to reconcile with someone or reach out to them and random things keep reminding you so you can't run from it? Yep. Me too.. and yesterday was one of those days..

As most of you know, we moved to Edmond, OK almost two months ago. While that seems like we've been here awhile, it really does take time to get settled in, get a routine going and get plugged in somewhere. Knowing this, I have been "easy" on myself that I haven't met a ton of people. I know the names of a few of our neighbors, have had a couple of playdates and met some families at church. So in my mind, I was doing awesome at building relationships ... well ... that's what I tried to convince myself anyway. 

You see, since we've been here, I've met all the people around us, but haven't tried to really reach out to anyone. I know how bitter our neighbor can be, but instead of talking to her and sharing the love of Christ, I try to avoid conversation knowing she is just going to rant and rave about about how things aren't perfect. So, I justify getting in the car quickly with having little kids or needing to get to the store. But the moment I dodge talking to her, it's as though I can audibly hear the Lord saying, 

"Really Ali? I put her in your path over and over again and you still avoid it? 
You know I'm not backing off. She needs to know how much I love her."

... and my response every time... 

"Ugh. I know Lord. Next time..."

The amazing thing about God is that He knows me better than I know myself. Instead of condemning me, He graciously reminds me in different ways of what I need to do. So at church yesterday, the message was based on Acts 13:4-52  and was called "Sent."  Go figure. Not only was the whole message on sharing the gospel, but the gentleman who was sharing emphasized that you don't have to go overseas, you just have to go across the street. Of course it was, right?

But it didn't stop there folks. Out of left field came this quote from an old Grey's Anatomy episode I was watching last night:

"If you believe in something enough that you would die for it, wouldn't you want to share that with your friends?"

Um, did not see that coming. It's a hard pill to swallow, but it is so on point. My goal and purpose in life is to spread the love of Jesus and glorify His Name in everything I say and do. I may fail at times, but I at least need to try. It's like that old saying "You can't make a basket if you don't take the shot." I need to take the shot. I need to try and love on this lady, regardless of the circumstances. She needs to know God's love and how much peace and freedom there is in that. It was a gift to me and not mine to keep to myself.

How about you my friend? Do you have the same urge? The great thing is, we aren't doing this alone nor do we have to be great at it.

"... 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness' ... "
-2 Corinthians 12:9

We just need to be willing to be used.

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"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes.." - Romans 1:16


To listen to yesterday's awesome message, click here