But the few days following the announcement were rougher than I anticipated. I knew some people may be hurt by the news, but I didn't realize to what extent. I did not want to hurt anyone. My flesh and emotions got the best of me. I couldn't understand how we could have such peace while others were in such turmoil. I began questioning if we did the right thing.... and worse... began questioning God's will for our lives.
Thankfully, I serve a sovereign and loving God who is bigger than my emotions and doubt. Instead of turning His back on me when I was doubting Him, He heard my prayers and once again gave me "peace that surpasses all understanding." (Phil. 4:7)... But He didn't stop there...
I couldn't even begin to tell you all the things that have fallen into place these last few weeks. From our house being sold the day after it was put on the market (for a significantly higher price than what we were asking for) to finding the perfect home for us in Oklahoma that met all of our needs and desires the second day we were there, there has been no denying God's hand on everything. The amount of things that have confirmed that we are doing what we are supposed to be doing, has almost been overwhelming.
...What a humbling experience, that's for sure...
Sometimes we don't feel like we deserve the blessings or opportunities that we have been given and almost question why they've been given to us. I mean, let's be honest.. JoJo and I aren't anyone special. We are simply ordinary people seeking after God's own heart and His desire for our lives. Still, the Creator of the universe loves us and thinks we're important enough to make sure we know He is with us (even when we doubt Him). How awesome is that? And the cool thing is, it's not just us... God loves every single person the same way.
So if you need Him, ask. He's waiting. It doesn't have to be anything special or fancy. It can be as simple as, "Lord, I need You." He hears you. And while I don't know what tomorrow holds for either one of us, I do know that you and I can trust and always find peace in the One who does.
Pretty amazing, right?
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."- Jeremiah 29:11
"But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit."